Well it's a start

So I joined a gym. AND I've actually been going. I've done Zumba but mainly I've been focusing on the lifting weight portion. I had no idea that you burn more fat and calories when you do 30 mins of cardio and then 30 mins of lifting.

I find myself wanting to work out longer. For instance on Sunday I went to the gym and we were meeting my parents to go to the movies. It was 3:30 and they would be there around 4. I was bummed I had to stop. I felt so good!

At first I wasn't sure how I would feel about joining this particular gym because the front it is all windows. As a matter of fact one of the weight is right next a window and people at the stoplight just stare right in. Aside from that I love it! Plus it's one of the less expensive gyms around!

Tomorrow I am going to try and motivate myself to get up before David goes to work. We'll see! As always...

Onwards and upwards.

On your mark...

So after many posts about saying "I'm going to start..." I've joined a gym. So has my wonderful hubby! He went this morning and he feels great. Tonight I am taking my first Zumba class. I hope I don't pass out.

My brother is my motivation. While he is type 1 diabetic, I still have to be careful. I still can get type 2 or the one you get for being fat. While I know my blood sugar and blood pressure are always good, I can't bank on that forever. I'm 205 lbs. That is a scary number. A number in which I never wanted to see. I think I always told myself as long as I don't get to 200 I'm okay. Well that's not true. Even when I hovered and danced around it at 198 I still was as unhealthy as I am now. 7 lbs. That's nothing.

I'm not going to slam myself and call myself a fat pig. I'm making the change. I'm not even going to look at pictures of me when I hit my goal and think about that girl I used to be. I'm moving on. In some sort of weird logic I think that if I keep looking at the past perhaps that will eventually end up being my future. Confusing? Yes...let me explain.

People keep pictures and clothes from when they were their heaviest. As a reminder of what not to let themselves get back to. More often then not, unfortunately they don't stay at their ideal goal. Why? I truly think that somehow if you keep the clothes and focus on those pictures it's almost an unconscious invitation for failure.

So, yes I'm fat. Now I am. Later on I won't be. To beat yourself up and always live in fear is not a life you should live. I don't want that. I don't want my child to see me either eating myself to death or living in fear that I will go back to being fat. For most of my life I have either spent it berating myself for being fat, made fun of for being fat and for a brief period of time terrified I would go back to being fat. WHATEVER! Screw that...I want to LIVE. No more shame no more fear. NO MORE!!!

I've given up fast food for Lent. I am interested to see how that goes. I'm really going to have to make the effort to fix myself a snack (healthy) before going to the store.

Most importantly as I stated above I'm doing this for my brother. Diabetes is a real bitch. Excuse my language. Not to get into it since it's my brother's personal affairs. Should the time come and it very well may, that he needs a kidney I hope to be able to give it to him. It's just what family does. But how the hell would I be able to do that if I am 75 lbs overweight? So I have no other choice. This isn't a vanity issue. It started out as being that way but now it's taken on a different direction. So there you go. That's it in a nutshell. Time to really get started on living a healthy lifestyle. As always...

Onwards and upwards.

Hello

Yep finally got off the couch and started doing instead of saying. If you haven't had a chance to check it out there is a Bollywood workout of Fitv and IT"S AWESOME!!!! I like everyone else out there love dancing instead of working out. So I did that. I'm trying to be better about my eating. Making quinoa instead of potatoes or pastaroni. I also made my self a turkey pita with baby greens and sprouts. Mustard of course. Dinner tonight will be cayenne rubbed chicken with an avocado salsa. I'm also thinking about this for a side and a nice salad. So there ya go. That's what I've done so far today. How are you doin?

Onwards and upwards.

Blizzard.

This blizzard is not helping me. I keep eating. I know I'm eating out of boredom but I can't stop. Somebody help me!!!

Phew....

So after much slacking I finally got back on the treadmill this morning. I'm going to ease myself in this week by walking at a fast pace with an incline of at least four. So I guess it was a blessing that the tv woke me up at like 5 am. I cleaned the dishes and got on the treadmill. I do know that I will be taking a morning nap with my little Alexander.

Tomorrow I am finally going to go to the store (Yay payday!) I'm going to get more fish and chicken and fruits and veggies and less red meat and bad food. I'm going to give the old quinoa a try. So I'm off for ideas of how to prepare it and brown rice so David doesn't get bored.

Six months until Lex turns 1. While that is a lot of time...it isn't. However, I'm not going to lose sight of my goal. I don't care if the race is over. I WILL FINISH! I also expect to sleep the entire next day.

Onwards and upwards!

Fatty fatty 2x4

I've put on a lot of weight. Great. This is not awesome. So instead of waiting until Jan. 1st I am getting started today. This morning I had steel cut oatmeal with a few raspberries and a little bit of honey for some sweetness. Now I am going to change into my workout clothes and get busy. Treadmill, Wii fit, and the Biggest Loser.

I also am going to join a gym. I need some help guiding me on how to get my body conditioned to run a marathon. Plus I like all the aerobics classes they offer. June is coming up quick. I mean my little Alexander is almost 6 months old. This is all for him.

I also have given some thought to once I get inshape maybe looking into becoming a personal trainer. What better motivation to keep in shape. I couldn't be all fat and get people in shape y'know? Later on today I am going to clean out our pantry. No more bad foods for us! As always....

Onwards and upwards.

Seriously?!

Hello. I don't know what's going on with my body. First I had to stop because out of nowhere my kidneys were acting up. Then my toe got infected (ew.) Now my back is all jacked up.

It saddens me. Not because I haven't been able to exercise to lose weight. It's bothering me that it's November and I have a marathon to run in 7 months. Now I realize that that still is plenty of time. I just had hoped that I would be further a long by now.

Sigh. I have my goal and I will complete. I am thinking of running a 5K around April to see how my progress is going.

My new routine is going to be at least 20 miles a week. That I can do. That's like 2.8 miles a day. I can do that. Plus my Wii fit and Biggest Loser. Look out! Meg is back and ready for action. Well as soon as my back stops aching.

Onwards and upwards